Thursday, April 29, 2010

Finding Myself at Breakfast- or - Two Eggs Over-Easy, a Cat and a Rag Rug

I awoke Tuesday morning bright-eyed in that deep-washed indigo blue light that comes on and wakes tiny feathered heads and makes them chirrup and mournfully whoo-whoo. It was long before my alarm was to bounce me out of bed and into a hot shower, but I was clear-headed and realized I had the chance to be alone for an hour in the wee hours...60 minutes alllllll to myself!!!!!
I spent half of that time putting proper make-up on...not the dash of cover-up and blush and a quick eyelash curl, but a full on "hey-did-you-put-make-up-on-today?" kind of proper.
Once I was dressed (with matching bracelets and a whiff of perfume), I decided on breakfast alone...two eggs and fresh coffee..."OH the comfort of it," I thought to myself.
Two eggs fresh from my chicken mamas the day before, salted and peppered and only slightly runny on my most favorite scalloped-edged red transferware salad plate.
Coffee in handmade pottery in deep indigos and browns.
A rag rug in browns and reds and bits of thises and thatses on my table made me happy, too.

The brightly colored one at my sink made me smile, and seeing my terracotta hen planted with lemon-scented thyme, I realized "ahhhh, I need to take pictures of those little things that make my whole body just line up together and say, "That is ME. This is what I like. Those things make me feel at home with myself." Then I turned around and saw my cat curled up on the other side of my breakfast, and I thought, "That is just perfect, too." I like the company of my old kitty on the table when I eat. That might be crazy, but people in love with their animals have done worse.
It all just kind of made me think for awhile about morning light and how I wish I felt this clear-headed and centered every single day...
I am so grateful for those minutes that seemed out-of-time, a wish granted, a prayer answered, a true blessing: finding myself at breakfast.

I also just realized that this is the 200th posting...I wish I had 200 bright red jelly beans to share with you (they're the coolest cause they double as lipstick)...but I don't, so accept my humble gratitude that you've read as long as you have, instead.

Thursday, April 15, 2010


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My heart feels blue.
Not the sad kind of "oh no" blue.

calm-water blue
sunshiney-day blue
chicken-egg blue
my-favorite-jeans blue
summer-lake blue
blueberry blue

this blue listens,
and rests.

Yes, my heart is butterfly-wing blue.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010


Imagination is more important than knowledge. For knowledge is limited to all we now know and understand, while imagination embraces the entire world, and all there ever will be to know and understand.

~Albert Einstein

Sunday, April 11, 2010

dreaming of reality

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my heart makes pictures
of my dreams
and haunts me with them

my heart makes scents
and sounds
and stalks me when my eyes close

my heart tells me
I don't have to dream
any longer

come take it
it whispers in my ear
this dream will come with you
when you open

Thursday, April 08, 2010


Stand up for yourself.
Quietly stand in your center and speak from there.
I've found it is full of understanding of myself and helps me to see through others.

It takes courage to be you.
You must be present to have true courage.

I've been reading THIS and reminding myself of things I knew before.
I'm listening to myself.
I'm helping myself.
I give myself courage...
to be me.

Monday, April 05, 2010

My Daughter

She holds my head in her little hands and says, "I love you so so much mommy."
She has tea parties with us all. She runs to help out anyone. She smiles and the room lights up. She cuddles like a baby kitty. Her imaginings are like fairy lights, floating above her head.
She radiates emotion, feeling everything deeply.

In Latin, the word spirare means "to breathe."
The words aspire, inspire, and spirit all derive from it.
My daughter derives from it as well.

I hope to be like her someday.

Friday, April 02, 2010

Snow, snow, snow today
It was windy and snowy for this beginning of April...

I was so glad to be back at work today, and not laying around nursing my hurt back...
though I did get to catch up on all of my favorite shows:
Ghost Hunters
Ghost Hunters International
Destination Truth
A Haunting
The Haunted
Most Haunted

Oh yes, it's true...I love the weird, the ghostly, the fantastical and the magical...I come by it honest. :)

Thursday, April 01, 2010

things that are true

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Stand in your own power and KNOW YOURSELF...if whatever you do is out of love, it can be only the best you can do.

Deserving of Love

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from Everyday Grace by Marianne Williamson

People deserve love not because of what they do,
but because of who they are.
When someone has forgotten their love,
they have fallen asleep to who they are; our mystical challenge,
and our spiritual power, lies in choosing to remain awake.